Its nice to have friends that understand what I'm going through. But at the same time it makes my heart hurt that they have to go through the same things. My best friend has been struggling with IF for over 2 years now, i have an online TTC buddy that has been TTC for about 2 years and know several other ladies that have TTTC (trouble TTC). Its not fair, all of these ladies would make great mothers. So the fact that they (and I) can't, when every other 16 year old or cracked out meth head can pop out a baby a year... just baffles me!
And I HATE when people say that it's just part of 'God's plan'..because I'm almost certain it's not in 'God's plan' for some meth-head to get knocked up and have a baby that is going to be abused or neglected!
I need to start going to meditation again, I think God & I have some issues we need to work out.
Ok. vent over, for now!
Kayla,
ReplyDeleteI am totally at this spot. I also am struggling with God. I have a lot to work out. I have heard that it's God's timing, which I know is true, but makes me so frustrated! I agree that it doesn't make sense that 16 yr olds or people who do drugs, murderers, ect can have babies, but people who are good people have so many issues trying to get pregnant. I have a friend who tried for 5 years and is finally having a baby next month. I have another friend who has been trying for 4 years and hasn't even gotten pregnant. It's hard and frustrating. I am right there with you. I think if our IUI doesn't work out, I may take a cycle off from trying. It's been too hard on me emotionally/physically. Sorry! This got long. Can I keep you in my prayers?
<3 -M
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DeleteM, I hope your IUI works out! Taking a break sucks, it's still all I can think about! I'll never pass up a good-intentioned prayer, i'll keep you in my T&P!
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