You are my sunshine :)

My sweet little sunshine,

I still can't believe you are on your way. I think it is finally starting to sink in that I have a little life growing in me, it's a weird feeling. It's a feeling that is completely impossible to explain, it's amazing and odd, weird and fascinating all at the same time. A feeling that, if you are a girl, I pray that you will get to experience one day. I just want you to know how much your daddy and I already love you,  your grandparents, aunties, uncles, and nanny do too! I can't wait to see you on the ultrasound tomorrow afternoon, I am excited to see and hear your little heart beat. It's a moment that I have been waiting for a very long time, so I will probably cry. I know you are just a little "prune" right now but I hope you somehow already know how much you are loved, cherished, and wanted. Your daddy is still trying to play it cool and not show how excited he is, but you will learn that he is really a big softy, he is OVER THE MOON with excitement.

I just can't stop thinking about you and having so many hopes and dreams for you. 

I hope that you always always feel loved and know that we loved you and sacrificed for you before you were even conceived.

I hope you always do what makes you happy.

I hope you know that you can always come home, no matter what, we will love you and take care of you. 

I hope you learn to stand up for what is right and defend those who cannot defend themselves.

I hope you have a soft heart, like me, and feel obligated to help every homeless person that you can (in safe ways)

I hope you aren't scared by set backs and hurdles, never give up on your dreams, ever!,

I hope I can teach you to love the earth & protect it. Do what you can to make the earth a better and cleaner place.

and most of all I pray that you learn to know and love God, I don't care what label you put on it.. but I hope you can look at the beauty in the world around you and see that there is something bigger and greater than yourself. Something amazing that created this world around us, that put the starts in the sky and the birds in the trees and that in one of the hardest times in my life, gave you to me.

Know that every night for the last 2 years, I have been praying for you and every day since I found out you were on your way, I have be praising and thanking God for you and I though I'm sure in 2 or so years you will be testing my patience, I will not stop thanking God for you until the day that  I die.

I can't wait to meet you sunshine, but  you have to stay put for 30 more weeks :). 

Love, Momee <3